HIS FACE IN MY JOURNEY
A Spirit of Thankfulness
"Enter His gates with thanksgiving and His courts with praise."
The first night after my diagnosis was the worst. The fear was intense, crashing over me, drowning
me, in waves. All night long, between sobs, I found myself praying and reciting scripture. Whatever
scripture I knew, I repeated it over and over. It didn’t matter what the scripture was or if it was relevant
to my situation, I just prayed it, again and again… Eventually I noticed that each time I said a scripture, I
got a little “blip” of peace. The “blips” didn’t last long, they were truly blips; but, they were a welcomed
relief! Immediately, I began thanking God for that peace; for the power I was experiencing through His
spoken word. One thing lead to another, and I was filled with thanksgiving. I was especially thankful for my
faith! What if I didn’t have any faith or what if I was still struggling with it, like I had been for most of my life?
What a relief that at this phase of my life I was in a place where I had already worked through the major issues
of my faith, and it was solid. I was thankful that I knew some scriptures and that they were bringing me
comfort now; I was thankful that I knew where to go in my Bible to find more comfort and help; I was
thankful that I was part of an Amazing church with people who would pray for me and with a healing
ministry That would care for me. I was thankful for my husband and family and the God-friends In my
life who I knew would support me; and I was so incredibly thankful for the Impenetrable foundation of
Jesus Christ to hold me up when my world was crumbling. I truly believe that the spirit-of-thankfulness that I received that first night is what opened the eyes of my heart and enabled me to see the Lord’s face throughout the rest of my journey.